Darling..
The words of the woman mother have power. There is an anger that can run through this genetic line. A Bile. A wounding of self worth. This can build inside the body and become build up in the joints, causing us to freeze, to not yield, to not move. It is time to release this. To be free of it. You have worked hard to understand, but freedom is coming. There is nothing to feel bad about. The words impacted your self worth because her self worth was damaged and back and back this goes for generations.
This is the wound, and in seeing this, being bad or wrong will clear.
As this heals you will connect again as you once did into the Earth, the masters, and your own sensitivity. This will give you the clarity and strength to step forward for the highest good.